I really need help making sense of things with my lost love. PLEASE HELP?
my ex & i dated for a year. we were both afraid of getting hurt & that ruined our relationship. we were like best friends,had an amazing connection, intense attraction, and…we had something unique. she had her problems facing her sexuality and dealing with a strict asian family who she couldnt come out to and i had mine cuz my dad had just had been diagnosed with cancer. my mom passed when i was a small child, i was an only child and my dad had only remarried when i was 19. we were really close and i was taking care of him while my stepmom worked. i had very inconsistent behavior towards the end dealing with being strong for my father and falling apart when i was away from him.i drew back from her & she drew away from me.we never officially broke up which was odd but that’s a long story.
i found out a couple months later from her bro that she began dating an asian guy who was 9 years older (she: 20: he :29) bcuz her parents approve. her bro said she was not in love with him & they behaved like friends…
In Fall of 2008: i switched grad programs last summer 2 b closer 2 my dad since this college was down the street from his house. I thought I saw her on campus 1 day but wasn’t sure. My dad passed away that November. I was devastated. Ive matured, grown, & learned how precious life is after experiencing caring for him while he was on hospice in October 2 the end of November. Shortly after, I text my ex & we chatted. When I told her my dad passed; she didn’t answer back. It hurt me. Ppl have told me she might be shocked & not know what 2 say. I didn’t get to ask if she went 2 my college. Months later, I saw her n the campus paper & it listed her major as fitness & kiniesiology….i worked for years as a personal trainer in undergrad and was passionate about fitness, I introduced her 2 it as an interest beyond going 2 the gym. She went thru so much school already studying getting a degree & certified in somthng else I was confused 2 find this out. Her parents would never approve. I ran into her at the school gym about a week later and quickly left without talking to her. I felt all these old feelings flooding in and I was scared and hurt that she didn’t respond when I said my dad passed. A mutual friend told me she broke up with her bf in mid December..which was 1 week after we texted. A person who works at my indoor rock climbing gym told me that she has seen my ex a lot in there with her brother since December..i was the one who took my ex for the first time. It has been my passion for many years & we even introduced her bro to it. The same mutual friend said she found it odd that my ex has been listening to a lot of the music I like, seeing as how she never liked it before. She started doing all of this stuff since she started at my college apparently. Is it a coincidence or what am I to make of this? Im confused…this has been a strange unfolding of events
My friends say I should email her and just tell her what was in my heart all along that I never did when we broke up. That I should explain to her what I was going thru. I never told her how much I loved her & how beautiful she was 2 my life. And ask her to meet and talk about things…they think we left our relationship unresolved and if we don’t end up get back together like they think we will, we will at least resolve things. what do you make of her recent behavior?
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